Indeed..a Loner

I'm indeed a loner..
Love.. Something not meant for me.
Thanks to the past and all the sad stories as well as cruelty of reality..
I'm afraid to love, even to fall in love.
Having a feeling to someone is good.
To be able to show affectionate to someone is happy, a happiness u gained only with someone you love.
But not anymore now.. I'm holding back.. No why..
It applies to everyone.. As long as I sensed something is not right..
I'll put a stop in the conversation, pulling back myself to a distance..
A distance where people will realize they should stop just right there perhaps.

Well, a best way to protect myself is not to dispose my weakness.
And hell yes, love is my weakness.
Being caring or concern will always be my weakness.
and if these is enough to hurt me, den love can kill me..
Easier than anything..

I'm never optimistic about love. It is never a simple thing to me.
Yeah.. I want it a lot sometimes, but rather not have it most of the time.
love? Loner better =)