Emo

Why am I feeling so emo in the middle of the night??
Blardy hell I been like this the whole day.
What's so wrong with me?!

Damn..
I hate the lack of confident me!
Fuck the insecure feelin!
Fuck the messy thoughts!
Fuck the wild imaginations!
Fuck the trust!
I jz wana throw all these shits away and sleep!!!
What a sleepless night again..

Speaking of insomnia,
It always bring me back to the time where those sweet memories lay..
Sleeping wit my pink color headset ard my head,
listening to my breathing sounds used to be so useful..
But no longer now, cz insomnia gets worse! =(

Remembering about the past, not the recent past,
but yrs ago past, never fail to make me smile..
We always learn to treasure things after we lost it..
That's human right?
Or maybe, it's just the common sickness for Cancer.. :)

I used to be so sure about things, be it judgment, people, thoughts, decisions, etc..
So unacceptably confident, unreasonably aggressive...
However, looking at myself now, I can't seems to see wat I used to saw..
What else can i say? Missing the old me.. Yes I do..
But I look forward to my future..
What would it be? I don't knw!

Not relating to the topic..
I just got increment!!! Hooray!!