Still, I couldnt come over it..

I've finally go thru some photos dat someone told me long ago...
Yeah.. How shud I say..
Thou at first, I did... thinking of stand on which side..
but no.. it's concluded as a stand of my side..
From a point of view of mine..
How shud d line being draw?
S a normal fren? A gurl? or...
How shud I accept d fact tat?
Me.. Nt d first time.. being ignored..
as in.. nt being told.. when u seems to hav told me how important m I?
or mayb juz I've thot too much of dat?
or jz a looked too highly on myself?

Nah.. I shud actually tel myself
hrm.. nt d first time dat similar incidents happened?
Or perhaps, one may nt wish to tel?
then, my question will be a..
why?
worry that u might be blamed?
worry that u might be stopped?
nvr even thot of telling anyone?
or maybe.. even u urself think dat it's wrong n it's hurtful..
or somehow.. it may spoil ur image?

Im sick of knowing it..
knowing more of d fact may just equals to addin salt on d wound..
so, wats d point??

Since it happened, n since it happened so openly..
I shall assume dat u wan a answer from everyone,
perhaps jz a vry simple, u did it correctly or wrong,
or maybe u dont fuckin care abt wat ppl thk.
It's alright.. Heck care wat u thk?
It's my blog.. It's my conclusion here..
Until d day I reli can put down everything,
including the disappointment and the wounds that wil definitely leaving me scars,
we shall only then meet up..

* Frm d very beginning Im nt standin on any side, I'll jz take watever as it is.. If u cnt take it, dont agree to it.. Its very irritating where u guys, knowing dat's a bloody mistake in d beginning, still put urself into it and god damn blaming on duno wat shit when u failed to get wat u expected.. To me, U cant sue sum1 for raping u when u've consented to it! Dun fuckin regret when u realised dat he's nt dat handsome s u thot!
* Frm now on, stop mentionin anything abt dis, stop showing me anything related to it, stop discussing abt it.. block me if u wan.. I wouldnt mind. I dun wish to see or know anything related to dis rubbish matter..