F**KinG EmbarraSsing Nitez..

It was my so called 1st day OFFICIALLY start class la..
Dont ask me, I duno how to explain to u al..

Today is freaking busy for my work cz I not just doing my own work,
but also guide n teach the gurl who came just 1 week ago..
Not only that, I still gonna entertain the "EVERYTHING URGENT" department,
General Litigation Dept that liars with those accident cases, tort cases, probate matters, divorce matters, etc, even during my lunch hour, I attended to their calls more than 3 times n doing their God Damn URGENT documents with my mouth tryin to 'chew' the rice asap...
They expect I do work during my lunch hour but how abt them?! Stupid dum dum!!!
U thk I only work for u a? Not that u pay me salary also!!! I'm hired to do BANKING stuffs but NOT ur GENLIT dum dum stuffs lo!!! Dun gek chan me, wait til 1 day I fat din I'll definitely throw those URGENT files on ur dum dum head!

Thought can leave on the dot (6pm) so dat I'll hv plenty of time to buy sum snacks to cls Cz I know that my gastric wont let me off so easily if I dont eat by 8 n hold til finish class (10pm)...
I bought a hot milo, 2 pieces of toast, 2 half boiled eggs.. (I finished it while waiting for my toast to be served. Wonder y they take so long time for 2 slices of thin square bread..)

During the class, I felt sumthing wrong vf my stomach.. I knew gastric's coming after me soon.. I quickly drink the hot milo which I put hopes on it that it can hold or beat my gastric..
Sadly, it fails.. Even I send the toast into my stomach to help hot milo.. I still feel the gastric pain getting stronger n stronger caused me to sit in a very weird pose to cease the god damn pain.. However, I managed to hold myself until the end of class cz I know clearly in my mind, no one can help me.. As I said, the worst part of being alone is when u need help, u know very well that NO ONE can help u..

After the cls, I thought I can hold til I got home n get a good rest.. Very obvious that tis gastric pain was NOT caused by food cz I had toast n hot milo, also my meals all taken in time.. Guess it's just stress or lack of rest? Bravely hop into the MRT which soon caused the most embarrassing moment of my 18 yrs life.. FYI, it takes 47mins from Dhoby Ghaut (my college) to reach Yew Tee (my house)..

After I got into the train, I regret.. I wonder those sporean all so keen of work or wat.. It's addi 10:15PM n the train stil full of passengers.. Ok.. I'll just take tat as USUAL.. There r a few god damn zi za geh spore teen, noisy chicks, talk so loud beside me while my PALE face ADDI showed every1 dat I'm not feeling WELL lo.. those 8 po zai make me feel very annoying n fan.. and u know whn u stil hv to bu shuang, u tend to take in more oxygen n space to balance ur body.. But sadly, not only the space is getting lesser, more ppls coming in so the oxygen also decreasing!!!

I started to feel cold n lack of oxygen in my brain that I knew it's gonna happen again!!! I was so terrified cz I know it's goin to be another.. nightmare...... back to somewhr ard Feb.....
There was a morning I almost faint in the MRT cz lack of oxygen.. I felt very uneasy n unwell, my face starts sweatin n it's all cold.. My legs bcome strengthless n I know if I'll just let it be, I'll faint any minute. I'm not gonna let myself faint juz like dat, I keep telling myself,
"Hold it, Joee.. Hold!! U can do it! Just a few mins.. Hold! No1 beside u.. Hold!!!"
There are stil 2 more stations to go, but I know it's gonna reach my limit, I decided to step out the nxt station, I know i'm not gonna make it til office..
The doors opened, I stepped out! Just 3 steps I walked out from the door, I fell.. I sit on the floor n my legs were strengthless... I cant even stand up.. I felt that I'm spinning once I stand up.. A few ppl came n tried to help me, but being rejected by me.. After 10mins of resting, I'm alrite n was able to continue my journey to work..
This time is even worse, I'm not only having cold sweat, but my whole body was sweating.. in cold.. I feel like vomittin, I'm dizzying, gastric, even my hands were like, cramp?
I know I'm goin to faint or vomit anytime.. Even thou I told myself to b cool, hold, hold, n hold.. But I stil have another 30 mins to continue on the journey.. I know I cant make it tis time.. I've got no choice but to wait desperately for the lovely doors to open for me to step out from the train..
3..2..1... FINALLY!!! 3 steps after the train door opened, I fell..again.. Quite a number of people came to me n ask me sorts of Q, wat I rmb was... I jz keep shaking my head n hardly waived my strengthless hand n say thanks, no...
Then, 2 gurls at last successfully help by holding me beside them to the bench n help me sit on it.. I cant even sit straight on the bench n need them to hold me.. Aiks.. Another guy went to seek for the Station crew for help.. N there come the most most most embarrassing part of my 18yrs of life so far I've been.. At 1st, I ONLY saw a lady holdin a medical box n apply sumthing ard my neck, my head n my "tai yang xue"... After tat, I saw sumthing tat reli makes me thk tat those ppl who lookin at me during my 'sit on the floor' de act is not the most embarrassing part but definitely the coming 1...
The MRT crew got me a WheelChair!!!!!!!!!
Oklo.. They al reli win liao.. I wont deny that I cant even stand by myself, not to say walk down the long staircase or escalator.. But it's reli reli reli fucking KUA ZHANG to let a 18 yrs old teen to sit on a WHEELCHAIR to reach the lobby lo!!!
Okay.. During the time tat the lady was 'helping' me.. There are a few trains stopped to let the passengers off, so.. I wont wanna thk abt it anymore..
Aiks.. End up I was being PUSHED til the taxi stand OUTSIDE the MRT station, to the ROAD n got a taxi stop right BESIDE of me n the driver went off from his car n thought of KEEPing the wheelchair in his car boot... Aiks...
Wat to say..

Advice by Joee.. Strongly emphasis..
Please take care of your own health.. Do NOT stress!!! Always RELAXxxxx!!!